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八天的长途旅行让我暂时忘记了工作和生活中无数的繁杂和世俗的人际关系。把自己交给旅途，尽情的享受，艰苦的身体体验和美得令人唏嘘的景色都是其中值得纪念的一部分。对于我来说旅行就是有这样的魅力——当时或许你觉得很累很累，甚至想到就此放弃，但是过后回想起来，所有的记忆却都是美好的。人们去远方旅行，是为了寻找一份与原来生活不一样的体验与经历，去释放潜意识里那个被压抑的自己。只有在旅途中，人们才能看到自己真实的内心，才知道自己真正想要的是什么。
从现代化大都市来的人更渴望看到最原始最淳朴的东西，所以他们不介意脚下泥泞的土地，衣裤和背包上厚厚的尘土；也不在乎没有独立卫生间的dorm room，没有消毒餐具的家庭式小饭馆。但似乎这样的要求越来越难得到满足，于是人们需要花更多的时间走更远的距离。

很幸运，在旅行的最后两天再次回到了让我魂牵梦绕的云南香格里拉。清晨6点从四川稻城出发，在蜿蜒狭小崎岖泥泞的山路上颠簸了将近14个小时。七年前，是为了追寻The Lost Horizon里描述的那片被雪山环绕的人间天堂，我来到了这里。七年后，是为了重温那份曾经让我眼眶发热的心潮澎湃。七年前的香格里拉是一个乡村式的小镇，印象中只有一条窄窄长长的街道，花上十多分钟就可以从头走到尾，街上的行人很少很少。七年后的香格里拉，已经发展成一个现代化的大县城了，有许多操不同口音的外乡人，有大大的牦牛肉火锅饭店，有新建的充满藏族风情的古城。七年前仅有的一家青年旅馆在当时聚集了世界各地的背包客，dorm room也会经常爆满。而今的那家青年旅馆满院子的绿藤红花依然美丽动人，但已少有游人问津。因为城市的发展，旅游业的兴旺，人们有了更多的选择。衣食住行虽然更方便了，但是却遗失了最初的那份感动。

附上一段于 2005.07.12 写的文字——
记得前年夏天徒步哈巴雪山虎跳峡，两边是连绵的群山峻岭和稀奇的高原植被，许多万年前的山体断面触手可及，脚下便是几百米深的峭壁悬崖和黄沙滚滚的金沙江不停拍打冲刷着两岸的岩石。回首望去，才猛然发现自己身在大山之中，后路长长，前路漫漫，天与山浑然一体。听见乌鸦叫被认为是不祥之兆，我试图顺着声音的方向寻找，可是却发现这声音在群山中环绕，回响，然后一点黑色飘过。忽然想起海枯石烂的神话故事，其实宇宙万物每一秒钟都在经历着瞬息万变，大河的枯竭，冰川的融化，物种的灭绝与新生……这一切就发生在我们生活的这个世界这个瞬间，我们的有生之年。

我想我会一直把记忆留在2003年八月的香格里拉。

P.S.如果拿“第一次”的理论来解释，我可以说服自己，对于成千上万第一次接触她的人来说香格里拉依然是美丽动人的，只是我和她的第一次是在7年前，现在我还未适应她的变化。就像我对V的感觉，我们8年前相识，6年前相恋，5年前分开，5年来未再次见面。我一直觉得我现在仍然喜欢着他，甚至曾疯狂地想挽回这段感情，但是有人说我喜欢的只是5年前的他。我不敢否认，如果现在我们相见，我确实不知道对他是否还有当初的感觉，毕竟我对他的记忆的更新在5年前就已经停止了。如果记忆与现实一旦发瑞脑消金兽生冲帘卷西风突，原本美好的愿望就会破灭。我是要把记忆封藏，还是用现实来验证？选择前者我会遗憾，选择后者我可能会失望，我该如何选择？

一首老歌，周蕙的《不想让你知道》，诠释此刻的心情。歌词好像就是在写自己，听着听着，眼眶就湿了......

I changed my msn signature after the journey——Every minute was challenging my limit, but beautiful!

好大的knapsack！但是我只是个伪backpacker。


一路上，沿途的风景很美。





绕山朝圣的藏民


雪山脚下








在巍峨的群山之中，人无比渺小。



收留我们的藏族大娘


七年后我又回到了香格里拉的松赞林寺。I can always find a peaceful moment in mind here.




没有找到七年前合影的喇嘛，决定七年后再来！



香格里拉新建的古城。虽然是新的，但是颇有韵味。




我们住的国际青年旅馆

明天就要出发去四川了，到海拔5000米的地方，拥抱心中神圣的雪山。旅途会很艰苦，但是我记得小阳的一句话：去别人少去的地方，才能看到别人少看到的风景！

还是Jason Mraz——Life is Wonderful，他最喜欢的歌之一。是啊，生活总是多姿多彩的，如此美妙，只要你有勇气去挖掘，他就会变得丰富。
Lyrics:
It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it take some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la
It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
It takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
It takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes some tears to make it rust
It takes some dust to have it polished
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la it is so....
It takes some silence to make sound
It takes some loss before you found it
It takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la it is so wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle

一首很好听的英文歌——I'm Yours by Jason Mraz，这段时间一直反复地听，一起分享一下！
Jason Mraz是我很喜欢的歌手，他坚持原创，擅长各种风格的音乐，包括：流行音乐，摇滚，民族音乐，爵士乐，乡村音乐、Hip Hop等。而且不愧是学音乐剧出身的，唱功实在了得。
Lyrics:
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people, dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
our time is short
This is our fate
I'm yours

D-d-do do you,
but do you, d-d-do
But do you want to come on
Scooch on over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
and open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
So please don't,please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
'Cause our time is short
This is, this is, this is our fate
I'm yours

Oh, I'm yours
Oh, I'm yours
Oh, whoa, baby you believe
I'm yours
You best believe,
best believe
I'm yours

一直很喜欢一部90年代初的美国好莱坞电影——《Pretty Woman》。以后很多的偶像剧都以这部电影讲述的“麻雀变凤凰、白马王子和灰姑娘”的爱情故事为蓝本，情节都大同小异，万变不离其宗。

相信几乎没有人不看过《Pretty Woman》，关于内容我也不想在这里赘述。我想写一写影片中爱德华和薇薇安三次make love的场景，我觉得这是隐藏在影片中的另一条精彩的线索，折射出爱情从无到有的变化过程。

第一次。        薇薇安被爱德华从红半夜凉初透灯区的街上带到酒店住所的头天晚上。作为妓女，她履行职责，主动出击引诱，而他起初有点排斥然后被动接受。他说了一句话：“我不跟你接吻。”在爱德华看来，接吻代表爱情，他当时显然并没有爱上薇薇安，和她可以有性，但无爱情。

第二次。        爱德华在酒店顶楼的琴房里弹钢琴直至凌晨三点。薇薇安很担心无法入睡，当她找到他的时候，两人之间发生了一种微妙的变化，是分开久别后的依恋，有一种立刻融入彼此的冲动。此时，爱德华显然已经对眼前这位美丽性感的女人产生了爱意，但是碍于面子不愿意承认。这次，他主动了，但是依然没有吻她。

第三次。        薇薇安被雇佣的最后一天晚上，爱德华因为生意上的困扰喝了很多酒。他们一起泡在浴缸里，薇薇安替他搓背放松，十分温馨和谐的生活场景。他们换上睡袍躺在床上，一切尽在不言中，她吻了他，他没有拒绝，而是积极地回应，事情就这样发生了，自然而美丽。他们彼此相爱！

如果接吻代表真正的爱情，如此美好，那么我们是不是应该把她们好好地珍藏，不要随便付出？但现实似乎正好相反，她们已经被滥用，都说物以稀为贵，如果她们已经贬值，随之换来的爱情亦会大打折扣。

袁泉——那件疯狂的小事叫爱情

又大忙了一段时间，出差采访发稿，循环不断，荒芜了这个私人空间。用了将近3个月的时间读完了路遥的长篇小说《平凡的世界》，花了一个多星期看完了电视剧《杜拉拉升职记》，这两个应该属于比较大的收获了。
这个月台里经历了巨大的人事变动，新旧总监更替，有的人走了，有的人留下，有的人笑，有的人哭。所有人都将面临着被重新选择，所有原本不可能的事情都将有可能发生。何去何从，拭目以待吧。

前两天和V在msn上聊天，他让我帮忙推荐一位名叫Martin的歌手，是他很好的朋友，V说：“He is just a boy that always seems to see the good in everything.” 马丁是一名24岁的美国男孩，参加了今年的“快乐男声”，夺得南昌唱区的冠军，并且一路过关斩将进入了全国30强，是所有外籍选手中成绩最好的一位。来中国才一年半，他已经能说一口比较流利的中文了，而其还会用中文写歌，非常勤奋。这是他在豆瓣上的网页http://www.douban.com/artist/cityzen/，强烈推荐他的两首中文原创歌曲《不再唱情歌》和《光芒》，以及英文原创Reality Nightmare和Beautiful Life

帅气的外表，灿烂的笑容。大家如果喜欢这个阳光男孩，请给予他最大的支持与鼓励！

上个礼拜天好友阿淑出嫁了！美丽的新娘子一脸幸福。






伴娘，也就是我了，和新娘新郎在主婚车上


我也很开心，呵呵！


十分强大的姐妹团哦！还有专业的摄影师----我们的FB群主小阳。






伴娘也来小show一下

今日立秋，如果按照农历的24节气，夏天已经在不知不觉中渐渐离我们远去，但是南宁的夏天还会继续发挥他的光和热。
今天也是我们可爱的FB群主的生日。群主有很强的个人魅力，是一只勇敢，热情，执着，讲义气的小狮子。带领着FB的姐妹们朝着快乐，积极向上的生活而前进。吃喝玩乐和工作学习两不误是我们追求的目标。

FB，有你真好，有你们真好！



 

曾轶可----狮子座

I feel exhausted today. I am also upset that the feeling of tiredness challenges my physical body and soul. I want to retreat to the silent world inside my heart to have a deep, long rest. Working and meeting friends consume large part of my energy. I messed up many things, and I even vented my anger to my friends. I took a deep breath trying to relieve the stress, but that was in vain.

Hey! I miss you right now and want to let you know, but you are not online. If you are around, I believe everything will be fine. I am going to my best friend’s wedding party on Sunday and be the bridesmaid. They chose me, as I am still single. I tried on the fancy dress tonight. It looked beautiful on me. But that can not cheer me up. Sorry, I need some time to restore.

A cover version of Anne Murray’s You needed me, by Boyzone. Sincerely to my best friend Su, a beautiful bride-to-be.
One of my foreign teachers told me this song was especially for the wedding. I am so moved by the lyrics every time I listen to it.
I cried a tear, you wiped it dry

I was confused, you cleared my mind

I sold my soul, you bought it back for me

And held me up and gave me dignity

Somehow you needed me

You gave me strength to stand alone again

To face the world out on my own again

You put me high upon a pedestal

So high that I could almost see eternity

You needed me, you needed me

And I can't believe it's you

I can't believe it's true

I needed you and you were there

And I'll never leave, why should I leave?

I'd be a fool 'cause I finally found someone who really cares

You held my hand when it was cold

When I was lost you took me home

You gave me hope when I was at the end

And turned my lies back into truth again

You even called me "friend"

You gave me strength to stand alone again

To face the world out on my own again

You put me high upon a pedestal

So high that I could almost see eternity

You needed me, you needed me

I am like the road in the night listening to the footfalls of its memories in silence.

2002, fall. It was the beginning of a new semester. I was sophomore. Our university recruited a group of foreign teachers to teach us. I remember there were 6 or 7 foreign teachers in total.

It was the first Sunday night in September. I and my roommate went to the English corner together as usual. When we arrived, we found all the new foreign teachers were here but few students came to talk to them. My roommate turned to me and asked, “Hey! You have many choices. Who do you want to talk to?” I looked around, left and right, and then my eyes stop, on a tall figure, a young face. The feeling was incredible, just like I suddenly regained what I had lost for years. I felt like there was a great power inside my body pushing me forward, directly to him. Then I said to my roommate, firmly, “Him! Let’s go!”

We had a pleasant chat that night and I got his name imprinted in my mind. One week after that, we began to choose the optional classes. For oral English, without a doubt, I filled his name on my form and became one of his students.

That was how things began…

We were teacher and student, a working duo, close friends, and then, more than that…